On My Soapbox

I have been kind of absent on the blog. It’s been a busy summer here on the Turk Ranch. We are busy almost every weekend and I just realized that I haven’t posted on my blog in MONTHS!

I really have enjoyed everybody’s feedback on reading my writing on the blog. From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU! Thank you for taking time out of your day to listen to me write endlessly about the things that people just don’t want to talk about. Or, things that I can open your eyes about or even educate somebody about.

While I was pondering about what topic I should write about. I had plenty of them go through my head. I could talk about trailing cows. Or how our preconditioning went a couple weeks ago. But, this is a safe space to share what’s really on my mind.

First thing is we finally have the money to continue our journey to baby. Finally sold the pickup. Not going to lie. That was a hard blow! I know it’s just a pickup. I know that pickups come and go. I guess I just wanted to have the cake and eat it to. I wanted a miracle to happen and for us to just get pregnant on our own. What a dream that would be!

Second thing is I had a follow up appointment with my doctor in Billings. I have never been the one to look in the mirror and hate looking at myself. With all of the pressure on me to just drop those last few pounds and make my BMI get under 35 makes me want to scream! I am so tired of being compared to a number. I am so tired of the future of my family being tied to a stupid number. Not only that, but tired of being judged by somebody that hasn’t even laid eyes on me. Hasn’t even seen the progress that has already been made. Wanting me to loose 15 pounds in a month makes me think that this is just to set me up for failure! To set us back one more month. And another month and another. All I’m saying is that I can see why some girls have body image issues. Especially when somebody is telling you that you HAVE to do this. Your future family plans are literally in jeopardy if you don’t get to 35. I cannot tell you the amount of times I have told Reo “If I hadn’t dreamt of a family my whole life. I would be fine giving up right now. I would be fine having dogs as our kids.” Thankfully Reo’s rebuttals to those comments are always well thought out and put together. Something along the lines of “Why would you do that? It would just be a waste of everything you have worked for and that you just pouring your dream and mine to have a family right down the stinky drain.”

You’re right honey. It sure would be a waste.

I know I’ve said this in my passed blogs but I couldn’t be on this journey with anyone else. Reo is my literal rock. He keeps me grounded when I want to give up. He keeps my head and heart in the right place. Through this whole thing he has just let me be angry. He has let me vent my frustrations to him. He has been the most absolutely amazing partner through this whole thing. I can’t thank him enough. I love you honey! ❤️

Surround yourself with people that lift you up. That keeps your head from hanging and your heart from hurting. They’re the kind of people that you need in your life. I have a whole army of people that do that for me. Thank you for your friendship and love!

-Morgan